A selfish failure

I'm a selfish failure.  I guess a manner of explanation is in order.  I have for too long chased after my own desires for fulfillment.  Who better to know how to satisfy me than the one who created me.  Why chase after bread that spoils instead of the bread and wine that give true and everlasting sustenance.  Like Peter said "where can we go, Lord for you have the words of everlasting life."

I find myself going through cycles of "busyness and distraction".  These are great tools used by the enemy to keep us spun up and confused.  My wife remarked today that she noticed I have been playing games a lot more recently.  She has also noticed a change in my general demeanor and mood.  I seem drawn out and run down.  It's because I'm not filling myself from the true source.

A few months ago I went on somewhat of a distraction fast.  I spent the time I would normally spend playing games reading books instead.  I remember feeling good about the time I was investing and felt like I was accomplishing something.  Well, it's time to go back to that.

So, I'm back focused on the journey ahead.  This is now day 3 of my 40 day journey.  Stick with me.  It's starting to get good.